Monthly Archives: January 2010

(don’t let me do) fools in love

I think I’m in love.

God, please don’t let me do stupid things to wreck this, not this one. Let me be a fool, but please don’t let me do stupid things to mess this one up. Please.

Thank you.

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the love that will kill you

She is a 27 year old woman, just graduated from her second college. Father just passed away, mom own a little local shop at home, to feed 6 people in house, all in one time. Older brother works everywhere to put more dime, other brother has mental illness, sister in law purely taking care of the house, while the little niece, just grown to 5 years old.

Economy never once crashed like now, and she has a dream to be a Film Director someday. There’s sadness inside the house, regrets and non-stop big wonders born all the time within it. Young people, must stay at home, put aside their dreams, in order to keep this family survive. Because mom started to silent her words and no longer able to sleep in her bed alone, without her late husband.

Physically attack, I believe is everyone issues in this little world, somehow, its a basic needs in a family. But mentally attack, which keep continues even when needs screaming to be fulfil from out there and you simply can’t, start to feel like ridiculous.

You’re grieving, that’s understandable. You need sometimes to put back all the broken pieces of the family member’s hearts, before continuing this journey. Okay. You shut down all of your doors and windows, to make peace with your anger inside, fine. But to shot down your own life this way, I dont know.

She has always been all the good side of my self, people loves to work with her (more than with me). Somehow I know, she will make a good Film Director. Lately she’s been rejecting a lot of job offers, work chances, put anger for those friends who acts like no friends (that we usually didn’t care at all), lately she lost her mind. She cant feel anything at all. She’s losing perspective.

I told her to get out of the house, and start to build her own life. I’ll cover what she need for a while and she can go back home anytime she want. All that she need o do is to take that single step to get out. Not to leave or abandone off course, but in a total awareness that life goes on, and so should she. If this is a mess, then she should figure out how to fix it, especially when she find it hard to deal with it.

Yesterday she told me that her mom wouldn’t let her. I told her, not any single mom would let her children step out of the house, that’s what moms do. It’s their job. But she must take that step and go with her own life, otherwise I don’t know. I don’t know.

I took me years before my mom let me get out of my house. And she never able to stop me to go out. Even when she finally did let me go out, I know she was sad, and I caused her pain to worry about me every night, but this is something I have to do. Time don’t make her go softly when I told her I’m moving away from the house (again & again), but that was a step away from the house, not from her. So she had no reason to get mad at me. I gave her no chance to fight my will. Not at that time and not even now.

My concerns to her (my friend’s condition) is that this big love she has from the grieving family members, will kill her. And that would be the most sharp knife you can use to kill. It will go deep in silent and you won’t recognize your own blood until you’re losing your own sight and died instantly, in the arms of the people you love, the people who use your love to shot you down.

Yes, this is for you, my dear friend. Please, know in advance that you will be okay. I won’t let things bad happens for you, for you have so many to offer to this world. I hope someday soon, somehow, you will be able to take that step outside. You owe yourself that chance.

In the meantime, take care. GBU.

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Uluwatu for a creative lady

Introducing Mia Gofar, my lovely cousin who lives in Singapore, captured in this picture several days ago, when she had a vacation in Jakarta with her family. She is a mother of 3 (three), a very inspirational wife to look up to, because she is a Jewellery designer too. She had her bachelor degree in Architecture and published more than 5 books about Jewellery and designs to create them nicely and esthetically. She even has her own brand for her Jewelleries, it’s:

With her own way, she has been one of my inspiration of what kind of woman I’d love to become to one day. Beside all the contradictions that we both have, I simply adore her consistency of being creative. So that she, for me, like some of my other cousins and best friends, is not just a pretty face.

Several hours ago, when I saw this picture in her Facebook picture album, I have to admit that Uluwatu did a great job to show Mia’s beauty, naturally. Mia told me that it feels a little bit too big for her to wear, but I don’t see it in this picture, it’s just fit her personality well. Uluwatu’s lace is just so wonderfully wrapped Mia nicely. Simple but irresistible.

And you know what? Its originally made in Indonesia, in Bali exactly. The fabric, the lace is handmade (one Uluwatu worker must give her signature in every piece of clothes she made), the workshop is (only) in Bali and even the tailors and the owner is Indonesian.

This is just one piece of Uluwatu. Trust me, once you touch Uluwatu, feel the fabric in your hand and see the lace with your own eyes, you will never get enough of Uluwatu. So stay away while you can, my dear friends. But if it’s too late, well, what can you do, but it’s the most elegant craft a person ever do in a fabric. Uluwatu for A Lady.

PS: Gee. Both Mia and Uluwatu owe me commisions for this 😛

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accesories for children’s room

…now on my desk, longing to be transform into something in a different use. Again, its from China, paperback, and the ribbons was made from recycled fabric. Nice, isn’t it?…

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christmas ribbons lightened up my day!

These ribbons are sale for averagely USD 6/roll, from normal price was twice than that. They came in many kinds of wide range, colors, fabric-one of them has two kinds of fabric in one ribon (!)-, wired/non wired, painted/printed. And even though I’m not celebrating Christmas, I always wait for one, because usually they have a lot of wonderful ribbons, sell for a half price! These ribbons, all of them, are made in China. Obvious, isnt it? But I just realized that a lot you can create from (just) ribbons. I can’t wait to sit on my desk and get Autism with these georgeus finds!

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