music and song

this is the soul of my journey. never want to start any journey without it.


I will never forget the first time I heard the song, and sometimes a while after when I really confirmed what I heard and realized that I’ve heard right the first time.

Hazard tells a story about a relationship between a man (in the video music implied by Richard Marx, the singer) and a woman named Mary.

Mary dies in a suspicious situation where in the song, it says that people put the man as the most considered suspect. But, is he?…

The man, known as ‘the boy’s not right’, found comfort getting closed with Mary, who find the man by his soul, stating in the lyric: ‘saw the man inside’. The song also implied that they spent more than friends quality times, by the lyric: ‘we used to walk down by the river, she loves to watch the sun go down’. They even ‘dream our way out of this town’.

The man stated in the song about the death of Mary, ‘I swear I left her by the river, I swear I left her safe and sound’. But before, the song also stated ‘No one cared until the night she went out walkin’ all alone, and never came home’.


So he was there with her. And he left her safe and sound.

But, then again, if that’s what happened, how would he know that she never came home?

There was another man, in the video there was another Point of View beside the Point of View of the man, is someone who seemed pay an intensive attention to Mary, the Sheriff. Could he be the one who killed Mary? Out of jealousy? Or else?

Or is there any other people left out from my sight and hearing, that could possibly killed her? Someone who was never in the text or the picture but always in the line of actions.

Who the hell killed Mary?!

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I will be your Man

19 years ago, when I was 13, my parents divorced. I knew it all by my self, no one told me and I simply took conclusion by watching my mom packed and go, also read a sheet of paper by coincidence when I was going to iron my clothes in the morning. I pretended things were okay, but the fact was, my whole world turned upside down.

I spent my days blaming my self, thinking that I’m not matter, that nothing would be good enough from that moment on. That people doesn’t care about me anymore, and I lose my faith to stay alive. I literally went crazy, and as no one knows, people started to think of me as a weepy girl. Because I kept crying and choose to be alone, in any occassions, hating my self, find a way to kill my self.

Yes, that was the 13 years old me.

A friend came for comfort, he is a friend of my boyfriend. I resented my boyfriend away, and he came along. I resented him, but he wouldn’t give up. For the rest of my 2 years in junior high school, I couldn’t care less about anything, anyone. I wasn’t afraid of anything. I lived in my own corner, and I was solid for my self until he came.

He tried a lot of things to stop me from feeling bad about my self. He worked on my homeworks, sneaking to grab my paper by the class window, write down the answers to my exams. He made sure I got into class, and I got on the right bus home, everyday.

After one year, I got used of the idea that he always stand behind me, watch my back. Seconds before I disappeared from him, I looked back and I always find him, waving his hands at me, smiling. Telling me that everything will be okay. And in the meantime, he will be there for me.

One day he moved away, my boyfriend said that he is sick and he has to go back to his hometown. We didn’t even say goodbye. But he left his address for me, and for sometimes, we kept in touch by mail.

I have his latest letter with me. He wrote that if he is offered to stay alive longer and that means he couldn’t get a chance to know me, he wouldn’t do it. He will keep it this way, that he had a chance to know me, to take care of me, even though he had to go first. But I will be your Man, Ranty, he said. Just like the song once we heard over our rich friend’s walkman, now and forever, I will be your Man.

I never really understand then, until I learned from my boyfriend, that he got Leukimia. And his time is up.

Not any single time, everytime I heard the song again, I didn’t remember him, and all the things he did for me, when nobody cares. He is, for me, a guardian. I could be lost in drugs and do another stupid any youth does in their age for no reason, but he kept me out of those area. And while he was doing all that, covering all of my silliness, he was struggling with his Leukimia also. No one knows until he left Jakarta.

I was just browsing and I found out this video, it brought me in tears because I miss him so much. And I hope to meet him again, to just hold him and tell him that I love him, for staying put between my madness, for being a friend when no one has faith with me anymore. For being there with me, even when I resent him everytime. For being my Man.

I swear, I miss his companies. We don’t have a lot of this kind of friend nowadays.

So, have a good rest, my Man. Hope you sit well with God up there. I miss you, and will always miss you down here. Hugs.

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Tell Him

I’m scared, so afraid to show I care
Will he think me weak if I tremble when I speak?
Ooh, what if there’s another one he’s thinking of?
Maybe he’s in love, I’d feel like a fool
Life can be so cruel, I don’t know what to do

I’ve been there with my heart out in my hand
But what you must understand
You can’t let the chance to love him pass you by

Tell him, tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper tender words so soft and sweet
I’ll hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Touch him with the gentleness you feel inside, I feel it
Your love can’t be denied, the truth will set you free
You’ll have what’s meant to be, all in time you’ll see

Ooh, I love him, then show him
Of that much I can be sure, hold him close to you
I don’t think I could endure if I let him walk away
When I have so much to say

Tell him, tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper tender words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Love is light that surely glows
In the hearts of those who know
It’s a steady flame that grows

Feed the fire with all the passion you can show
Tonight love will assume its place
This memory time cannot erase
Your faith will lead love where it has to go

Tell him, tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes
Reach out to him
And whisper, whisper words so soft and sweet
Hold him close to feel his heart beat
Love will be the gift you give yourself

Ooh, never let him go














Songwriters: Afanasieff, Walter; Foster, David; Thompson, Linda D

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why Step Up 3D is the best of it’s trilogy.

No. It’s not because of the 3D. It’s a craft works they did in the movie, but it’s not the reason why it’s the best of all.

As the third installment in the Step Up Trilogy , and the first shot in 3D, the film follows Moose and Camille Gage as they head to New York University, the former of whom is majoring in electrical engineering after promising his mother that he would not dance anymore. However, he soon stumbles upon a dance battle, meeting Luke and his House of Pirates dance crew and later teaming up with them to compete in the World Jam dance contest against their rivals, the House of Samurai dance crew.

For me, the story is one of those walls lined up for cliches. But the cast is appealing, the shooting location in New York City showed different angles, quite tempting to try one of those numbers for real, and oh the musical numbers offered a lot of dynamical emotion and passions. Theatre filled with people living inside the movie. They laugh when its time to laugh, moves their feet when it’s time to move their feet. For a while I forgot that we all wearing a weird 3D glasses (Umm, for some reasons 3D glasses always have a weird form -_-‘)

Numero uno of whys, for me, the story is no longer about 2 kinds of dance that long to be combined. This time, Dance (apparently is the whole combination of every dance there is) questioned as one of a life choice. Back when I was 5, dancing is an extracuriculer, additional activity my mother asked me to join, to form my body, to keep my healthy good. Plus, maybe she peeked on me when I (supposed to be) dance alone in my room (yeah, most-likely, that is why).

Moose, who promised to never gonna dance again, following a limited edition Nike on his first day at college and ‘trapped’ into his own world, which apparently is his only world: Born from the Boom Box. Days goes by and Moose forced to choose between his school or dance. As for me, why doesn’t he does both? Yep, in the end of the movie he said he wants to take major on Engineering and Dance. I know this guy is one tiny-curly hair-cool guy! 😀

I mean, look at this:

Moose, major in Engineering and Dance.

Isn’t he cool? Wait until you see him dance, and you will agree with me, no doubt.

Secondly, Natalie, the girl who has a classic young-woman-own-her-life-but-not-just-yet character performed as a very good dancer in every musical numbers. From all of those scenes with her in frame, I will never forget this one. With the background is hundreds of Boom boxes (I’m one of those boom box generation too, when you take off your hat for the bass-boom function and party is always on everytime you turn it on), she dance alone, just to warm up.

Natalie, the full-skilled-dancer of the movie

It’s funny because she might be the best dancer-girl in the whole trilogy of  Step Up. She got the rhytm right and moves at the right time, for the right directions (thank you for a wonderful Director of Photography who showed me this clearly). Never once she lost beat in those numbers. The last number with Luke that she did on the final competition, is amazing. And I thought they never dance together. Thank God, they did.

The biggest treat for the eyes (errr at least, my eyes :P) is always Luke, the main character who has the body of a dancer, the moves of a passionate human and lead his life with so many ways of logical thinking. And yes, he is manly, especially when he dance (how often can you see man dancing and still manly? Only when they’re real dancer, I guess). He apparently has my life, passions for movie and dance, all in the same time. And he’s good looking too. Damn.

oh, come on. lie to me, tell me that this Luke isn't the biggest treat 😉

Last but not least, is the marvelous sets they serves. I mean, most of us know New York, but dancing on the street like Moose did, moving your body proudly in the park of your college, tap your feet down even when there’s water, all you can see only in Step Up 3D.

best friends stick 'til the end (Lion King 1 1/2)

Moose and his water number. Perfecto! 😉

All of dance numbers are expertly choreographed. Layers in the choreography serve the 3D technology nicely, and we still have a good portion of depth.

Still photo from the set of Step Up 3D

the water number. wait until they moves 😉

cool neon number! 😀

This is not a movie about learning the techniques of dance, not about two people falling in love out of life-happens-moments and share their differences on dancing qualifications, try hard to become one. No, this is a movie about what you can do after you realizing your real passion in life. A movie about talent you have and hard work you still need to accomplish to complete your journey.

Knowing that to choose one path in your life, doesn’t mean you have to leave another.

You will grow a bigger heart, along with the beat and not one single romantic scene goes for nothing, there is connections and character development in each interactions happened. The movie succesfully delivered unforgettable choreography and treated viewers with good visualisation.

Step Up 3D

No. Thank you for not showing any faces here (in the film poster). Like Moose said, ‘One move can change your life’ ^_^

That’s why Step Up 3D is the best of it’s trilogy.

Now, let’s dance our own way, beautiful people! 😉

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blame it on the weatherman

It’s just one more day
No one said
There would be rain again
Won’t blame it on myself
I’ll blame it on the weatherman
Get away for a while
Here I am out on my own again
Won’t blame it on myself
I’ll blame it on the weatherman

Standing on the shore
Calling out your name
I was here before
I could see your face
Only clouds will see
Tears are in my eyes
Empty like my heart
Why do ya say goodbye

The rain goes on (on and on again)(repeat x2)

Alone I can hear
Hear our song
Playing for me again
Won’t blame it on myself
Just blame it on the weatherman

Standing on the shore
Calling out your name
I was here before
I could see your face
Only clouds will see
Tears are in my eyes
Empty like my heart
Why do ya say goodbye

The rain goes on (on and on again)(repeat x2)

Maybe it’s too late
Maybe it’s too late to try again
Maybe I can’t pray
Maybe I can’t wait
Maybe I can’t blame the weatherman

The rain goes on (on and on again)(repeat x2)

Oh blame it on the weatherman

Written by Hedges, Brannigan Ackerman, Caine
Produced by Ray “Madman” Hedges in his mothership
Arranged by Ray “Madman” Hedges and Martin Brannigan
Published by Sugar Free Music/Bucks Music Ltd.
– 19 Music Ltd/BMG Music Pub Ltd. – Polygram Music Pub Ltd.
– Chrysalis Music Ltd. – Andy Caine/Palan Music Pub Ltd.
⌦�n㬴1998 Sony Music Entertainment (UK) Ltd.

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