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What the hell we can do about hell?

What do we know about hell, not much. But we tend to believe that we acknowledge the signs, that it’s coming soon, that its getting nearer every day, or sometimes, in my case, that we are already in hell.

Working in film production, you know you will learn to be a friend of chaos and stay positive through any kind of mess. Especially when you’re sitting in the production department. But I think, however, this kind of hell applicable to everyone else involved in the production.

As where I am working now, I feel like I’m in hell, even though it’s just the pre-production, not production days yet. What I’ve been working on so far-my previous experiences, my capabilities, by being a good crew,  is not enough to help the production to run smoothly.

The last week has been crazy, people come and go (with their own reasons) and those who stays lost interest to stay passionate about the work, too tired to deal with any sudden changes and decided to just work it out and not asking why or what, not anymore.

I thought, this should be good. And it is, in a way. My team now filled with people only care about actions, make things happens, executors. Apparently that’s not the real problems coming from.

It’s complicated, and set up to be that highly complicated already. And somehow, I think, the world, this universe don’t agree with us, with this production. Call me crazy, but things I’ve been dealing with was sent by Lucifer, and it’s not getting better every day. Like I always believe, Lucifer always good in two things: sending bills to my credit card and hell to my work.

People now got silent and smiling all the way. They may think that everyone now is okay through this hell, but for me, this is the most fragile situation, where people get silent and just go along the way. Because actually, they don’t.

Because actually, what the hell we can do about hell, anyway? It’s… hell.

We can only just hope that whatever Karma, that God or Lucifer sent to us, to this production, soon will be over and done with, before there’s not even a single soul willing to stay around.


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bottom, an unbearable shadow of a journey.

Being on the bottom of a film production hierarchy is nothing but a challenge. And if you are anywhere near smart, you will able to play it clean and clear with strategies require. Of course, somewhere, sometimes, you still have to find a corner that only you know to release some tensions that nobody should know. It’s hard near impossible for the first time, but when you come to the 3rd or 4th time, you’ll grow out of it.

People look down to you, that’s for sure. No matter how old you are, how far your knowledges about stuff, how low profile you are, people just look down and tend to say so many things to you until you forget how to hear. Because you’re a bottom, a bottom is not supposed to have any say.

People expecting you to know everything, every single thing, no matter how you get the info and the details from any secret files, you printed it and talk up the summary, pointing the highlited ones politely, you will still have to know. About everything, everything that people needs to know. But you’re a bottom, you deal with it everyday, with everybody, you are not supposed to say “I don’t know”.

People likes, no, loves,  easy-fast-cheap. Any other way would make them see you more bottom than you already are. So talk as everything is the easiest-fastest-cheapest, that’s a must skill as a bottom.

People don’t like to hear you say negative words, such as: no, don’t know, don’t have, impossible, etc. A bottom is always hired to spread good news. Even if it’s actually a bad news, try to make it seems like a good news, and works on it later. Like when they ask you about 100 pcs of yellow post it flags, you know you have to order with one week prior, but what you must say is that yes, you have it all, spreading all over the bookstores in the island. They will 50% happy to hear that. Well, an expert bottom will have them in hand at the time.

People works with you everyday, everywhere, everytime. So when you have dinner with people you’re working with, you’re a bottom, when you go to places on a break days with people you’re working with, you’re a bottom. Conversations will go around task you haven’t finished yet, reminders to not forget what you have to do for next, actually, it’s more like working anyway, on a dinner, on a break day. Since you’re a bottom, you simply just have to enjoy it.

People will not understand your chaos. They need stuff and they have to have it, right here, right now. So a bottom must learn to be flexible with their to-do-list, because any demands should come any minute. A smart bottom will manage to get the tasks done and order in time, before people ask. And that’s the real challenge, because this would require other department’s works, such as, of course, finance and accounting department. As a trained bottom, you should use your speech skill and charm to knock on the finance and accounting department, asking them to give you the money that you (people) need.

People will have holiday, and you will update the inventory list. People will go on USD 80 spa/hour and you simply don’t have the money to buy your own nice meal. People will yell at you and you will yell to your pencil or simply eat ice cream and ruining you 2 months diet. People will repeat their bad working behaviours and attitude, and with two deep breaths, you will learn to laugh inside, and still do the silly tasks professionally.

People WILL NOT care. So don’t expect it. You know from the start that you will working as a bottom. Find a good reason why do you want to join this job as a bottom, make a good deal, and be a proud bottom. Even a bottom has a pride—nobody should know about this.

So, here I am, a bottom, trying to accept that it’s my destiny, to be a bottom. I’m practically a single fighter, or usually, forced to be a single fighter. Together with these words, I’d like to let you know that you should always remember, that being a bottom is sucks. Accept and deal with it, otherwise you should never start at all.

Damn, it’s extremely hard.

Friday, August 21, 2009 at 6:25pm

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