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The Messy Industry, film budgeting

Indonesian filmmakers now no need to worry for jobs this year. They are everywhere. A director committed to make 10 films this year. First time filmmakers, each, has at least 3 upcoming films, to be shoot, all, this year. Documentaris, to be told by a contact from the government, reached more than 15 productions, all around Indonesia. My classmates are everywhere now, agencies, producer, director, writer, they reached their long-passioned positions.

Back on my table, I made 18 initial budgets already, now ongoing for another 4 more. I’m working on this only since february 2012. Those are for commercials, music video clips, film, short films, animation. Don’t ask how many proposals, I stopped meeting people to talk but working it out all online, funny, faster that way.

Wow, many upcoming projects, you may think. From that 18, at least 2 or 3 will be back and finally get executed.

From my table, only 2 of them back to me. I gave one of them to my friend, because the scheduling is not fit with mine, and another one is still on the ‘H’ letter. Hope.

I stopped making commitments as nothing is really worthed anymore. And just catch on the date, which project it will be, for me to working on.

But that’s not the pessimist part. I know some movies succeeded commercially, reach almost a million audience last year, and some makes triple profit out of the revenue. This year, all the investor are trying to get the same luck, the same profit, even more.

One of them, has 2 weeks shooting days, less than a month pre-production, with a budget less than USD 60.000! One of my friend, on another project, came home at 3 am and has the next call on 5 am, that’s everyday for almost 3 weeks, and they still have more shots to shoot next month. One of my classmates has to work as PM, also Loc. Manager, can only have one more assistant–because they dont have budget to hire more. And in the name of ‘we have another upcoming projects, we’ll call you again after this’, he took the job.

2 or 3 of my close friends, chose to stay sane, and prefer to sit and wait, until things makes sense again. They work on another kind of projects, events, crafts, cooks, etc. Anything but this industry, for now.

My Guru once said, if you dont have the money, don’t even think of making a movie. I told my line producer once, never start any production without knowing the money is there.

I mean, if you can make a movie with a budget of USD 60.000, working in less than 2 months, am I going to have a crap-movie-list now?

When it comes to budgeting, means you have the story locked and the general directing concepts ready, why compromise?

But hell, yeah. I may have born in the wrong country, the wrong century. If filmmaking deals now seems like a deal you can get between friends, then I’m definitely not a member of that universe. I’m not enabling low production budget for the rich become more rich only. Nor I enabling for any small corruption forms in filmmaking, even if its my own boss, I’ll be out of their way in a second. Been there, done that.

Maybe that’s why they’re not hiring me again. He he.

Well, 4 more to go.

Have a nice days, everyone! ^_^

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what matters most to be a film producer

“Has the time comes yet for us?”

I said no. Not yet.

My friend looked disappointed. She asked, “Why not?”

Because we are not ready, I said.

She looked at me once again, hoping there will be another words from me.

I opened my book and started to read it.

It was a very nice sunday, at least for both of us, it feels like sunday. We sit in a very cozy corner, a cup of cappucino and another slice of cheesecake for my dear friend. Some Fashion magazines on the side and another Paulo’s new book I brought that afternoon. Everything was simpler than it became later on that day. We were planning to spend sometime together and keep up with new piracy DVDs in town. We were planning to get ourselves some good food and good view, in a place we only knew. Then she asked the question. And I can’t lie no more. Not to her face.

We both are Film Freelancer. We studied in Film School, got bachelor degree 2 years ago, and now facing the real life, real world-that nobody ever gave any heads up abut how mess it is when we’re student (that’s my friend always said-me myself has been warned, so I’m more prepared than her-yeah, right). Most of the times, things hasn’t happened exactly like the way we expected them to be. So we kind of got surprised and wonder if there’s anything we can do to make everything’s right.

I mean, to be honest, the industry is a mess, regeneration process never keep it’s persistence, and teachers simply not tried their best to teach. In some level, we believe, students, teachers, professionals and industry it self, gave up. So now, there are some people who, either has the power, the money, the talent, the lucky, or has all that, rise up and take control of this premature national film industry. Don’t get me wrong, some good results comes up,  most of people now even believe that the industry, once again, rise up high.

But I keep moving on, I did my jobs, swore to never get back to film producing anymore-ever, and then got another job in film works and again, get it done. While my dear friend, let her mind took control and lost perspective, she didn’t take any film jobs, yet working on any jobs for that matter. Until one day she asked how to be happy for what she chose to live with.

Once again, I told her, that she’s not ready.

She got confused and asked for an explanation.

See. When you want to be a Producer who Produce a good film and make bucks from it, first you have to see a ladder in front of you. Then, make the first step.  You can look up or look down, but you will find your self not alone. There’s a lot of people around you, working on the same high ladder to go to the same place up high. You may start kicking your rivals, cause damages to their ladders, -anything to make this journey is all bout you only-, or you can just keep focusing on finishing your homework and exercise your body to be a stronger climber.

Either way, we call it a process.

My dear friend listened patiently. Gosh, I shouldn’t talk the wrong things to her now. She’ll gone crazy in second.

As we know, it takes time. And we never know if we will make it or not and I think, it wouldn’t matter anymore. Because when you call the process, you will begin constructing your self to be a better person everyday. A better film crew, everyday. And when that’s what happens in your life for real-constructing your self to be a better person everyday by doing the job you love-you won’t have times to comment on others. No matter how lucky they are to never have to climb the ladder you climb to be a Film Producer, to be a person you’ve been dying to be since the first movie you watched.

I know it bothers you my dear, I said. And it’s okay. It hurts to know someone has everything we’ve been trying to get since we know how to live our life fully. And it’s really okay. I know, every single smile you showed was really tears of realizing that where they’re there, you’re not even close yet. It’s okay. It’s really-really okay.

So take your time, to see, to listen, to judge, to cry, to blame, to run, to ever sorry for who you are, to ever mad at your imperfection.

Then move on. Because Life goes on. Any dreams shouldn’t die before it comes true. And for that, my friend, I’ll team you up to fight this. To be where we’re supposed to be. You can put me as your front line soldier, or hide me somewhere we only know, to create strategies to win this war. Nobody will find me, nobody will able to touch you, and even if we have to leave wounds, we will win it. Someday soon.

In the meantime, let’s do our homeworks. And eat good food once in a while. Learn more and more. Everyday. Everyday. This is who we are, this is what we love to do, and this is our life. Nobody should drive this car. Let’s rise to it, no matter what. Let’s rise to it.

We both know I might talked bullshit. But we were smiling. Laughed at our own silliness. Then we ate our good food. And those were real good food. That’s what matters most to be a Film Producer: To enjoy your good food. That’s what matters most. 

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after the love has gone

For a while to love was all we could do
we were young and we knew
and our eyes were alive

Deep inside we knew our love was true
For a while we paid no mind to the past

we knew love would last
Every night somethin’ right
would invite us to begin the dance

Somethin’ happened along the way
what used to be happy was sad
Somethin’ happened along the way
and yesterday was all we had

And oh after the love has gone
how could you lead me on
and not let me stay around
Oh oh oh after the love has gone
what used to be right is wrong
Can love that’s lost be found

For a while to love each other with all
we would ever need

Love was strong for so long
never knew that what was
wrong oh baby wasn’t right

We tried to find what we had
till sadness was all we shared
We were scared this affair would lead our love into

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